Wednesday, July 23, 2014
Thursday, May 22, 2014
New Hair Cut~
Okay so I was definitely not going to write a blog daily but I just had to update you guys on my hair. I shaved the side last night! People who know me, know I love long hair and I hate when people who have longer hair cut it off. (I really don't hate it, just know how annoying the growing back processes is so every time my friend Allison says she's cutting her hair, I disown her for five minutes.)
Time for a confession... I have this thing called hair A.D.D. where I cannot keep a style for very long b/c I constantly need "hair change". I would color my hair repeatedly every few months and I'll suddenly want a short cut or bangs and try and talk myself out of it. The last time I chopped my hair off, I was slightly devastated at first. I'm not sure why b/c my hair had been super short when I graduated high school but maybe b/c it was a symbolic move where I was shedding my past! Such a great move b/c then my hair was so healthy and I eventually got the hang of it. However, I quickly got bored and the idea of it being long suddenly became the most important goal ever.... (in my fashion world list of goals lol). So I grew it out....and didn't take care of it at all...and it was down my back and suddenly breaking all over the place b/c of my need for an ombre even though my ends were bad. (rolls eyes) So I started trimming it and right before mother's day I had chopped a good two or three inches off.... I now had the struggle bun...sigh. Any who, I saw this picture of this singer Cher Lloyd with the side cut and all of a sudden I couldn't shake the idea of shaving the side of my head. I have a friend who has it and she gets these really cool designs and she looks adorable with it. I had thought about it before but forced the idea out of my head. All of a sudden now I had to have this style. Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo I did it! I wasn't scared. I was excited. I wore my hair pinned back for a few days to get the feel of it and I knew it would be great. I went to this girl I know, a friend of a friend and she hooked me up. I don't even know how she put up with me b/c my hair was so dirty and I was morty but she kept telling me I was fine and we laughed at the direction my hair was growing. At first she shaved off the side and we both just kinda looked around... it didn't even look different. All that anticipation of a cut being really daring flew out the window.... I'm like "this is it??" I didn't feel different at all lol. We both thought adding lines or designs would definitely help me get my wow factor. She added two lines and I was super excited and it felt like I had done something! lol When I went home I washed it and roller set it all over again b/c it was so dirty... she shoulda kicked me out the salon... ugghh lol.
Here's the finished look...
When I told a few people I wanted to do this, I got a lot of negative feedback... And I was like wow, I don't even understand why anyone would even care. It's my hair. I knew I wasn't shaving half my head off like Cassie but I thought that it wasn't a big deal. Not only is it just hair but it isn't going to change me as a person. I am not my hair! Or maybe I am.... I'm creative... I'm myself..... I always up for change. Moral of the story, Do You! Do what makes you happy. My hair cut or piercings or need for crafting (lol) are only a small part of who I am. If people don't like it then oh well! I love it! My MOM likes it.....that's my approval there. I feel like so many of us are so scared to be ourselves. Me included at times. At the age of "almost thirty" I should be able to do what I want and it shouldn't even set anyone's radar off.... Well, for the most part lol. I also learned that sometimes it's better to just do things without telling people. Let them see the finished product b/c sometimes it's hard to picture what someone else is trying to do! Hopefully I'm an inspiration to someone reading this who is having that inner struggle with being themselves. I go through it daily despite what other's may think.
Here's Cher Lloyd..
Time for a confession... I have this thing called hair A.D.D. where I cannot keep a style for very long b/c I constantly need "hair change". I would color my hair repeatedly every few months and I'll suddenly want a short cut or bangs and try and talk myself out of it. The last time I chopped my hair off, I was slightly devastated at first. I'm not sure why b/c my hair had been super short when I graduated high school but maybe b/c it was a symbolic move where I was shedding my past! Such a great move b/c then my hair was so healthy and I eventually got the hang of it. However, I quickly got bored and the idea of it being long suddenly became the most important goal ever.... (in my fashion world list of goals lol). So I grew it out....and didn't take care of it at all...and it was down my back and suddenly breaking all over the place b/c of my need for an ombre even though my ends were bad. (rolls eyes) So I started trimming it and right before mother's day I had chopped a good two or three inches off.... I now had the struggle bun...sigh. Any who, I saw this picture of this singer Cher Lloyd with the side cut and all of a sudden I couldn't shake the idea of shaving the side of my head. I have a friend who has it and she gets these really cool designs and she looks adorable with it. I had thought about it before but forced the idea out of my head. All of a sudden now I had to have this style. Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo I did it! I wasn't scared. I was excited. I wore my hair pinned back for a few days to get the feel of it and I knew it would be great. I went to this girl I know, a friend of a friend and she hooked me up. I don't even know how she put up with me b/c my hair was so dirty and I was morty but she kept telling me I was fine and we laughed at the direction my hair was growing. At first she shaved off the side and we both just kinda looked around... it didn't even look different. All that anticipation of a cut being really daring flew out the window.... I'm like "this is it??" I didn't feel different at all lol. We both thought adding lines or designs would definitely help me get my wow factor. She added two lines and I was super excited and it felt like I had done something! lol When I went home I washed it and roller set it all over again b/c it was so dirty... she shoulda kicked me out the salon... ugghh lol.
Here's the finished look...
When I told a few people I wanted to do this, I got a lot of negative feedback... And I was like wow, I don't even understand why anyone would even care. It's my hair. I knew I wasn't shaving half my head off like Cassie but I thought that it wasn't a big deal. Not only is it just hair but it isn't going to change me as a person. I am not my hair! Or maybe I am.... I'm creative... I'm myself..... I always up for change. Moral of the story, Do You! Do what makes you happy. My hair cut or piercings or need for crafting (lol) are only a small part of who I am. If people don't like it then oh well! I love it! My MOM likes it.....that's my approval there. I feel like so many of us are so scared to be ourselves. Me included at times. At the age of "almost thirty" I should be able to do what I want and it shouldn't even set anyone's radar off.... Well, for the most part lol. I also learned that sometimes it's better to just do things without telling people. Let them see the finished product b/c sometimes it's hard to picture what someone else is trying to do! Hopefully I'm an inspiration to someone reading this who is having that inner struggle with being themselves. I go through it daily despite what other's may think.
Here's Cher Lloyd..
A great friend once told me lol....
Hope every enjoys there day and does something exciting today!
Wednesday, May 21, 2014
Just a little to start with~
Sooooooooooo I just got here... it's pretty empty...and I don't even feel like I am a good enough writer for blogs. I'm here b/c Michelle brought me here. But I think that maybe I could share some of my thoughts and pictures with my friends and family. So we'll see...
Right now I'm at a part of my life where there is a lot of change. I just finished school and will finally have some sort of degree. I'm really considering pursuing my field of Criminal Justice which is exciting. Jermaine doesn't want me to be a correctional officer....but that's because he doesn't want me getting hurt. I'd be in a very stressful and possibly dangerous environment daily.....mandated to stay for shifts....etc.
I feel empty though, I'm not sure why... maybe b/c I know deep down inside this graduation was supposed to be spent with my best friend Michelle. She's here alive and well, but she took a break from school and I kinda get sad when I think about it... But she's fine. That's just me being selfish. My mom and Dad are not going to be able to be at my graduation. When I found out I cried like a creep in the bathroom at work.... (confession). The second I told my fabulous friends, they rallied behind me and said they'd be there. I am very grateful. My sister and brothers will also be there and thank GOD my hubby (well not yet but almost lol) and my two daughter's will be there as well.
I'll be thirty in a few weeks. That sounds so old to me....omg. I remember being three. I remember being 8 and helping my mom with my little sister as a baby and now I have two of my own and grey hair (blinking). This is the age where I really have to be a "grownup". I have to let go of unnecessary people, thoughts, and negativity. They say when you reach this age, you have almost no friends lol. It's true I guess. I have 5 really close friends and even that's a lot. I'll take that!
I'm slowly making changes with my inner self. Trying to be a positive person even when things are the pits and trying to encourage those around me to be positive. I think when I get encouraging words, it really helps me to feel better. I'm just trying to use that same energy on others around me. I'm happy though. I have my days where everything seems wrong but that's because I'm human. We all are. I'm thankful for those days when I'm not happy b/c they remind me how wonderful happiness is! I'm not perfect. Sometimes I'm not very nice but I think that could be a reflection of how I feel I'm being treated at the time.... idk. I'm sure everyone can relate to that. I'm honest though. Too honest lol.
I'm all over the place but I really excited for summer to start. I just want to hit the beach and pull out the grill... the grill Jermaine ad I don't have yet. LOL Oh my goodness, I prolly should introduce my family members to you readers! How rude of me.
I have a wonderful boyfriend Named Jermaine. He is totally a great guy, a little rough around the edges but once he gets to know you, he's a softy. He's a great dad and step dad to my two children. I have a seven year old named Brooklynn and she is apparently the spitting image of me.... has my attitude (dear God). I also have a 2 year old named Charlize. Charlize is totally opposite of Brooklynn. She's not as social with strangers and she is a big ball of fire. She acts more like Jermaine. He's completely out numbered in our house and complains about it a lot. He grew up with no brothers and four sisters. Poor guy. Secretly though he is obsessed with us I'm sure. LOL Any who, these are the people who keep me alive and breathing everyday. Hopefully I come back and post and you guys aren't utterly bored with my life. =)
This was from April I believe....
Right now I'm at a part of my life where there is a lot of change. I just finished school and will finally have some sort of degree. I'm really considering pursuing my field of Criminal Justice which is exciting. Jermaine doesn't want me to be a correctional officer....but that's because he doesn't want me getting hurt. I'd be in a very stressful and possibly dangerous environment daily.....mandated to stay for shifts....etc.
I feel empty though, I'm not sure why... maybe b/c I know deep down inside this graduation was supposed to be spent with my best friend Michelle. She's here alive and well, but she took a break from school and I kinda get sad when I think about it... But she's fine. That's just me being selfish. My mom and Dad are not going to be able to be at my graduation. When I found out I cried like a creep in the bathroom at work.... (confession). The second I told my fabulous friends, they rallied behind me and said they'd be there. I am very grateful. My sister and brothers will also be there and thank GOD my hubby (well not yet but almost lol) and my two daughter's will be there as well.
I'll be thirty in a few weeks. That sounds so old to me....omg. I remember being three. I remember being 8 and helping my mom with my little sister as a baby and now I have two of my own and grey hair (blinking). This is the age where I really have to be a "grownup". I have to let go of unnecessary people, thoughts, and negativity. They say when you reach this age, you have almost no friends lol. It's true I guess. I have 5 really close friends and even that's a lot. I'll take that!
I'm slowly making changes with my inner self. Trying to be a positive person even when things are the pits and trying to encourage those around me to be positive. I think when I get encouraging words, it really helps me to feel better. I'm just trying to use that same energy on others around me. I'm happy though. I have my days where everything seems wrong but that's because I'm human. We all are. I'm thankful for those days when I'm not happy b/c they remind me how wonderful happiness is! I'm not perfect. Sometimes I'm not very nice but I think that could be a reflection of how I feel I'm being treated at the time.... idk. I'm sure everyone can relate to that. I'm honest though. Too honest lol.
I'm all over the place but I really excited for summer to start. I just want to hit the beach and pull out the grill... the grill Jermaine ad I don't have yet. LOL Oh my goodness, I prolly should introduce my family members to you readers! How rude of me.
I have a wonderful boyfriend Named Jermaine. He is totally a great guy, a little rough around the edges but once he gets to know you, he's a softy. He's a great dad and step dad to my two children. I have a seven year old named Brooklynn and she is apparently the spitting image of me.... has my attitude (dear God). I also have a 2 year old named Charlize. Charlize is totally opposite of Brooklynn. She's not as social with strangers and she is a big ball of fire. She acts more like Jermaine. He's completely out numbered in our house and complains about it a lot. He grew up with no brothers and four sisters. Poor guy. Secretly though he is obsessed with us I'm sure. LOL Any who, these are the people who keep me alive and breathing everyday. Hopefully I come back and post and you guys aren't utterly bored with my life. =)
Jermaine and I summer 2013
This was from April I believe....
And here are my girls!
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